Wednesday, December 16, 2009

Love - bed of bedlam...

Disclaimer : All those who’ve been into it, above it, or below it, under it or over it, on It or off it, it=love, please read.. And those who don’t fall under the above criteria, you must read then. Below mentioned is purely fiction. But if you feel you are a part of it directly or indirectly via your friends or far relatives (as far as Somalia deserts), I shall be held no responsible for it’s the very nature of human minds to coincide, like me and Shakespeare. .. Sigh.. !!

Love – ha..!! A four letter word which transforms your four sided world, leaves no other atom of progress to transgress. Nice feeling, Rather, the most terrible one also.. Leaves no iota of your belonging to yourself.. Rips you off from within.. Some stranger, enters your life, lacerates your heart and finds a room in it and stays without asking your permission... It makes you sublet yourself…!! You are no more the owner of your body and thoughts.. Dreadful is the feeling… Appears to be the nicest, you just feel it’s the best thing ever happened to you… Life was never this sexy.. You’re embroiled in the things never done, affection never shown, but have just shun... It is so damn bizarre and inexplicable. Just not happening to the ‘happening’ ones.. When you think it’s the right time to open up, following are the consequences you encounter-

Oh no..!! She already has a boyfriend…
Oh no..!! She’s engaged dude..
Oh no..!! She’s married dude..
Oh no..!! She’s a senior manager…
Oh no..!! She’s committed dude... (The guy she’s committed to will be thrice dumb than you, but heaven knows how he’d come across her first, making your advances go in vain. No doubt his dumbness was more powerful than your intelligence...)

Worse situation: Oh no..!! She’s not straight…!!!!!

Well, only the luckiest bastards (no pun intended) get to hear this answer –“Hey, even she kind of likes you I feel…”

Yes, now life changes. You start getting insomniac. Attending calls every now and then, texting as frequently as possible, talking about as freakiest and as tiniest a thing possible on this lamenting earth. It abdicates you and deigns at you with pleasure.. You just can’t wait more to see, to conceive, to adhere to its nascent disgorge of emotions. You are left with capitulating to the influx and efflux of facts unknown to you, but just to do justice and live in the moment, you put your arms down.

After a little time which the clock takes time to pass, you start losing the hitch, you feel things start getting jaded, they no more look interesting, smears of ignorance takes into form, not knowing what wrong you have done, who has vilified, what the farthest reason could make your nearest guesses right, nothing seems certain of the facts to relate.. Nonplused and perplexed…! Not knowing which moron has put you into this muddle. It gives you zillions of the options to think about, making you yourself the quiz master and the contestant on the hot seat. You don’t get the right answer. Neither the counterpart, who has thrown you into this ambush, gives you. The seat, at every minute, keeps getting hotter and tries to burn you from every mode of transmission leaving you with the yelling interjections. And you finally end up with something called – “I think we should move on..!!” “Yes.. Even I think so..!!” And they live happily ever after….!!!!!

(People, I’m not talking about eternal love btw, any ways the point is I’m talking fiction, and eternal love also has almost become the biggest fiction ever.. Ironically..!!)

Making it another moment of insanity, rather good to be without it and keep the ownership of yourself to you, and also not having faced such a sublet stated above in my life – I, unknowing of it to feel happy or sad about , mark my single status freedom… !!!

Cheers..!!

Monday, December 7, 2009

Resilience....!!

Resilience - I’d come across this word when I was caught eavesdropping into some stranger’s conversation. Well then I had one more stranger to tackle, the word “resilience”. I ran onto my desk and quickly ran thru the pages of Webster’s, who took 30 years to come up with that dictionary, and I found the word required in less than 30 seconds from around 300,000 entries.. Well you must have declared who the intelligent dude is…!! Well let me be humble, we both are...!! The meaning said “an ability to recover after a misfortune or change”. Yes, it was then I thought this was no-joke a matter to be talked about when you come to this word… It made me flow the ink on paper from the pen I held..




The people long for more from you.. World exploits you..
They have high expectations.. You encounter inevitable incarnations…
I sit here staring at the word.. Resilience..
You fumble.. You fall…
What do you have... There’s no boundary wall….
Listening to evil.. Some of you, some from you.. And some in you...
I sit here staring at the word.. Resilience…
Body calm and cool.. Having made yourself a fool..
Give out love of substance.. No matter if the counterparts don’t...
In the emotions entangled.. Just keep the love on.. Stupid myth..?
I sit here staring at the word.. Resilience…
Earth just quaked.. Women molested and raped...
No sign of pity... thrown into a limbo....
World disdain at the grievances..
Casted out into open.. Stripped off to the core…
The last pulses of heart.. The pieces lingered and loitered...
Sarcasm having no existence...
Hard though to say…….
I still sit here.. Staring at the word.. Resilience…!!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

The First month at a workplace called Deloitte -

Prologue: Was it that I had forgotten to progress, to track my pulse for it doesnt loose a beat, to take a leap.. No.!!I knew I had to carve a niche. It was just that I needed wings to fly, platform to express, liquid to quench thirst, and there came a call from Savita (My HR) saying : Raspal.. You are "in". It was at that time, I knew I wasnt "in" as into a company, but "in" as into a place where the "best choose to be". It was a breakthrough............

Saga of W2D: The 2 days' session called "Welcome to Deloitte" at Novotel looked similar to me as how Gods must have told their disciples after the Big bang :" Look.. This is how we made the world.. Now you make it better........"I was given the Table no.3 where I had a guy (Ajay) from ISB sitting beside me. I knew where I was. It was no more any 'other' place. The first day, Bidan (our coordinator) taught us how to kiss, I mean how to wave out a kiss to the audience and introduce ourselves. It was funny, I enjoyed it though. I could see the people holding experience from 3 yrs to thirty in the firm, ventilating the thoughts on how each of them made their life meaningful with whatever they did. The sessions were taken by the top brass of different service lines. From long sessions to short siestas at the back (College habits die hard), both the days were knowledge vending, enjoyable and interactive. I had already made new friends....................................

The Training : My life had already started seeing the shuttle at 9.40 and I was seeing a female who shared the same bus stop. Well, the days of training were real fun. Our class took no time in gelling with each other. Started lunch together, taking breaks together, and yes communicator contacts were getting added every now and then and the microsoft product begged for relief.. The instructors had gone their way out to explain concepts. Cheers to their patience. I got acqainted with the softwares like Corptax, Cjett, DCW,etc.. Learnt a lot during the training. Hit the Floor: I'd hit the floor on 6th july, unaware of how will my team be.. Will I be comfortable/or will I make my team comfortable. I just then see a person calling himself the Team Lead comes staggering near me and announces :"Hi Raspal, We are here not only to become good professionals, But also to become good human beings.Welcome to Deloitte." It answered all the intricacies .Thanksgiving: I thank all my friends, all the instuctors from day 1, all those who've been a part of me directly and indirectly. And yeah, i forgot to thank the laptop providers. (courtesy: ITS).

Cheers.. !!